@Jack I agree with you for the most part, but my brain isn't wired that way. the thing thst brings me the most joy is how everyone perceives me, not just one person.. though, i suppose if that one person was completely dedicated to me i would only dedicate myself to them. I'm quite insecure so if i were to get in a relationship it would be quite skewed.
back to my original point ; the reason i want to be tall isn't to get one girl, it's so i can actually be pursued and desired by women, envied by men, and actually impactful. I'm short and unattractive so it's unlucky for me i wont get that.
(under 21 though, let's just hope my growth plates arent closed)
i can't remember much of what you said after that. this commenting thing needs to be changed.